being that it’s the day of giving and love and family and all…

i have this theory of parenthesis moments, though i’m not sure if i’ve shared it here, per se. in any case, it seems to me, that every christmas day must be somewhat of a parenthesis moment, just because it’s a day, every year repeated, often with the same players and the same food and themes, but every year a tad different in some way. a new member joins the group, an old member is gone – we’re all older. i swear my dad’s hair has more gray.

maybe it’s the introvert in me, but sometimes at big family events like this, one of my favorite things to do is to sit on the couch and close my eyes and let the chaos work around me, all of the smells and sounds and slivers of conversation occurring simultaneously, and every voice has a home in my mind, linked to a thousand other moments and smiles and smells and christmas mornings.

maybe you do this too. maybe you like to be part of the chaos. maybe you hate christmas. well, try not to hate christmas. even if it has become something much more awkward and superficial than it was supposed to be…it’s still a parenthesis moment.

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maybe this is what we mean by cute

a sense of sincere, kind and beautiful honest.

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breaking the rules

not really. we didn’t have rules.

this was my last saturday. we still have to finish the wall of quotes.

i’m the silhouette.

i love my job.

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a piece of burnt bread to those people that are something more to you than just…anyone

as with most things in life, it’s something you really only think about when in need. new friends. usually in such abundance. except for when you’re somewhere new, or making a change, or, well, maybe they’re not always in abundance for everyone to begin with.

someone to just meet your eyes across a table and smile when you say strange things. and invite you to random events like ’60′s soul night.’ even if you decide not to go.

and to be sarcastic with you. and to share ideas with you. and to tell you when your hair looks bad. and to make funny faces at you. and to … simply allow you to enjoy their company.

in this vein, i propose a toast to friends.

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the moment when

you’re kind of down or maybe discouraged and you’re telling yourself that it doesn’t really matter, even though you know it does. and really you’re just focused on forgetting all about it.

that is the moment when someone surprises you. when they stop and turn and give you something you weren’t expecting at all.

and that’s how i remember that, as quirky as life is, it’s always still beautiful.

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i’d like to start again

so i’ll begin small. with something i read today.

it’s not so much the meaning, which is actually a little depressing, as it is the way that the meaning is express. beautiful and articulate.

which is why he’s my favorite writer.

‘he knew that with the minimum effort of closing his eyes, the long, fatiguing task awaiting him would begin to be resolved in a climate that was becoming uncomplicated, without compromises with either time or space: with no need, when he reached it, for the chemical adventure that made up his body to suffer the slightest impairment. on the contrary, like that, with his eyes closed, there was a total economy of vital resources, an absolute absence of organic wear. his body, sunk in the water of dreams, could move, live evolve toward other forms of existence where his real world would have, as its intimate necessity, an identical – if not greater – density of motion with which the necessity of living would remain completely satisfied without any detriment to his physical integrity. much easier – then – would be the chore of living with beings, things, acting, nevertheless, in the exact same way as the real world. the chores of shaving, taking the bus, solving equations at the office would be simple and uncomplicated in his dream and would produce in him the same inner satisfaction in the end.’

from ‘dialogue with the mirror’ by gabriel garcia marquez

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just in case

in case you forgot, or in case i did, the point of this blog is to be an aggregator of beautiful things for cynical people. and in case you didn’t think it was possible, i found one.

a case, that is. i found a case.

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i leave today

life can be beautiful on the west coast too.

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i wish the internet had scratch and sniff

because then you would smell this, like i did today. and you would feel calm, like i did today.

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an anniversary twice over

today is the anniversary of two things. forty-six years ago my grandmother gave life. one year ago, hers went away.

thank-you.

and i miss you.

and patty doll is sooo coming with me to california.

and happy birthday dad. i love you. this one’s for you.

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